Sunday, April 4, 2010

Vogue-ness!

"Oh please la mama!U are so not vogue!" Wait a minute young lady.Watch what u're saying.Me?Not vogue?!
Oh pehlease la.
"Sugar,wat are u so mad about me now?U know what u did just now was wrong.U are so lucky that it was not your
grandma who caught u."
"Mama,me and Jared was only kissing!"
"Now young lady,u better lower down your voice before the whole neighbourhood can hear u."
"ARGH!!!!i HATE U!"
"Why dont u sit beside me now and we can slove this problem before dinner?"When she finally sit beside me,i wrap her in
my arms around her.
"Baby,u know that i am open to talk anything with u and let u do anything u want as long as i was informed bout it.
But having u kissing a boy in a room was wrong.i know that your room is your private place but as long as u are in my house U are
not allowed to bring a man into your room without asking me.Your grandma and grandpa will have mama's neck if
both of them find out bout this."
"But.."
"Wait.I'm not finish yet.Mama only have you now in my life.U are my rock and strength.And we live in a Christian family,it is my responsibility to
protect u.I hope u understand why i kick Jared ass out just now"
There was a long pause.Finally,
"i'm sorry.i'll never do that again.i promise," she said in tears.I smiled joyfully.At least she understands what i was saying to her.
I held her face with my two hands that held her since she was born.
"U're forgiven.Dont ever do that again.By the way,mama thought that Jared is your lab partner.Is there any chemistry happened during the lab
that mama didnt know about?hmmm?"Sengaja put my serious face.
Now she's blushing!Oh my...
"Well,it start off when......"She continue her story with a smile in her face and i attentively listen to her story.At the end,
"So now,U and him are?" i asked.
"i dont think i love him.U know when i kissed him,he.."
"whhaoo...not too much info on that," i teased her.
"heheh...I guess me and him are only friends.i'm more comfortable like that."
"As long as u are true with your heart,then u are doing the right thing.Now,i want u go take bath.We're eating out tonight,"
i said as i look at the clock on the wall.
"Ok boss!" As she walk out from my room,
"Ally."
"yes mama?"
"I love u."
"I love u more mama.oh ya,i'm sorry that i said that u're not vogue.U are the most vogue and the best mama a daughter can have."
Alicia Joy Addison.My love,my strength,my heart,my soul.She's my everything.My baby girl that i have sweared to protect with all
i have when she was born.Althought she does not have a complete family,i tried my best to be her mom nad dad at the same time.
How quick time has passed by.I remember when i held her the 1st time.She was so small and fragile that i was so scared that i might
dropped her.Now,as she growing up to be a teenage girl,i get even more scared.This is the age where she'll try anything and everything.
Yes i know what she'll go through at this age.I've been through it.The ups and downs of a teenage life i called it.
As i was getting ready,i remembered what she said earlier."U are so not vogue!"HAHHAHAHHAH....i laughed so hard that i barely
can stand straight.Well my dear baby girl,u would be in shock when u found out how wild your mama was in her early age.Saying that makes me
recalled back all the crazy memories that i've had.My 1st crush.My BFF's.My 1st night out.Oh how crazy and stuborn i was at that time.
"Mama!!!Call for u."I shake my head to get back to reality.I rushed downstairs to take the phone call.
"Who?"i asked my daughter.
"Auntie Mia"
"Helo?mia?"i listened to my best friend as she nags about how later me and Ally are.
"Ok.kat tempat biasa la this kan?Sorry la mun lambat lak.Caught up in teenage drama tadik."
"MAMA!"
hahhahaha....

Monday, March 22, 2010

trouble heart

today:22 march

i was not feeling well since last 2 days.but today i really had a bad fever.mummy called at noon as if she knows what happen to me here.i had been missing her since last 2 weeks but never called her cause i was scared that i would worry her.last nite,i even said "mummy mummy" even i close my eyes.Even as i tried so bad to close my eyes to get some rest i still cant sleep and AGAIN i said "mummy mummy" because i missed her so much.

but later on,i cant stand it anymore so i gave her a missed call so that she would call me back.when she called,tears start pouring down like rain altho i just listen to her hello.

mummy:hello?why did u called?still feeling sick?

me:yaa...*sob sob*

mummy:u already eat?

me:no.i dont feel like eating anything altho my roommate already buy me my dinner.i cant eat anythng.*still crying*

mummy: dont la like that.u have to be strong.as much as i wanna go there and take care of u but me and daddy need to settle somethings 1st..its about your brother..

that is where i start to feel that i am a selfish child.the tears didnt stop for few minutes during the phone call.she has so much problems and here i am adding salt to her wound.at the end,

me:sorry (i could only said that cause the rest of my words are stuck down in my throat)

mummy:its ok...

p/s:ilovemymummymorethananything!


Monday, October 26, 2009

HATRED

GOsh...how dare he gets to my nerve like that.who does he think he is?ugh!
i shall forever remember his comment...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

new.awkward

gosh...
never thought i,THERESA EMU PENGIRAN, would create my own blog...since i`ve always view others blog,why not create my own?i knw(2x),i`ve said so many times that i won`t have time to do the updating uploading stuff tapi sikpa la...polah jak...hhehehhe...i'll try my best to be BLOGGING all da time sampai smua rasa boring udah...hahhaha...